Its my one year
Amazing is that?
It really makes me happy actually.
Im so surprised I made it this far in life.
When I look back and see what stuff
I have been through and what I have
in my blog
or my old blog…
(Its really bad. Dont judge my sixth grade self..)
but thats not why I wanted to write today.
The real reason is…I miss my best friend.
I miss the girl that i spent hours with on the phone, talking about
everything and anything.
I miss our movie nights and chick flick watching,
i miss our chalking
and laughing together
and spending every waking moment
I miss it.
And yeah, i have friends now, but
not any new best friends.
And the worst part of it all,
is that we stopped being friends August
and i still can’t put it behind me.
I have anxiety.
its not that bad,
but when it does show up,
it shows up with friends.
I obess with every little thing I did asking,
I can’t let this go
because I lost my best friend
and I had no one else.
And its terrible.
I just want to be friends with her again…
or have a friend somewhat like her
someone I can be close to.
If you’re reading this..I think I know who you are.
Im sorry if I hurt you.
I’m really sorry.
Because right now, Im standing in the dust,
Wishing I could go back into time.